The saddest story

I listen to what you say, but I see what you do
I remember the day when all my emotions seemed to be true
you have your own thoughts but it's not what you said
and now its gone, dead, the saddest story ever read.

I reached out for you but you couldn't embrace
You left, you fled, without a trace
When your story revealed your sick plot
that's when the roses begin to rot.

When your around I'm uneasy, my heart races
At times I wish me and the fly on the wall could trade places
I rather dodge fast enough to not get splattered
then to live life with you as if I didn't matter.

Go head, go on, I'm sick, I'm through
I need to be set free and away from you
Don't cry for me, don't ask for me
Just let me get out of this misery

This is a nightmare, how could this happen to us?
Its because we mistaken love for what was only lust.
Don't be sorry, because this chapter has to end
you need me to need you but now no one will win.

Did the tremors affect you? What about Irene

Hi beauties

I'm not sure if it is hormonal or if the tremors from the earthquake kind of set me off a bit. I had terrible migraines and I have been having weakness in my legs. Has anyone else been experiencing more exaberations than usual?

I am very thankful that the storm didn't do too much damage here up north however my heart and prayers are with the family who have lost loved ones during the storm.

God bless

WOW been gone for a while

I haven't posted on here in a while..I have been busy. I'm just getting back into the habit of writing again.

The heat has been rough on me, especially if the humidity is high smh. Today was pretty low humidity in NY so I was good. So good that I wore my high wedges :) I said this weekend that I wanted to get back into wearing my heels. I love heels and Ive been a little down about not wearing them on the regular. However I do keep in mind that with working with PreK children, heels weren't really an option. So, now that I'm done teaching summer school and work in an office, I can wear my heels! woop woop (but keep a pair flats on hand) :)

Until next time
Nikki

Keep on striding

hey beauties!

I hope all is well :) Life has been a whirl wind lately but I'm still striding. My anniversary of the dx is april 13th. I can't believe its been a year soon..sheesh.

Nothing else really new just taking it one day at a time and trying not to stress too much during these wedding plans :p

Until next time..

a heart to heart with mom soothes the heart :)

Hey I know it has been a long time!
Many updates. I have a new job with health benefits that are awesome!!!!!!

I am so happy and I am counting my blessings :)

So on Monday, my mother and I had a long heartful conversation :). I spoke to her about my worries and concerns with a potential progression of my condition. Friends trust and believe I know the Lord is with me and I MUST trust HIM, I just kept those feelings deep down and they needed to come out. My mom hugged me and it felt good. I know that despite the hardship, the aches, the pain, the numbness, weakness, I am and will continue to be STRONG. So while the enemy thought he had me wrapped around his fingers, I just Fired back!

and friends that's what we must aim to do..Fire Back! I may have MS but it doesn't have ME!

Makes me want to HOLLER

Hey beauties,

I hope all is well.
Well, today a short while ago I did just what the title says, I HOLLERED. I was in so much pain and I kept finding myself say Why God Why??? I feel like I'm crying to the top of my lungs but yet it seems like I'm in a house with all the windows up yelling for help and people just walk by. So after deep breaths and drinking some sips of cold water I was able to calm down. My head is still bothering me but God is with me. There is a reason that I have MS and I am still on the quest to find out why..
I know God is listening to my prayers and I know He is with me always...
Well beauties, lets keep each other in prayer and take it one day at a time.

woah I learned something today!

hey beauties!

I know I have been away for a while but I am back. I have been pretty busy and I haven't really had much to discuss however here is an update:

My bf and I have celebrated our 10 year anniversary :)

I have changed the days that I take Avonex, instead of it being on saturdays it is now on tuesdays :)

I have been doing better, instead of feeling symptoms everyday like I did during the summer, the symptoms have decreased :)

I start a new job on Monday

So thats pretty much the update, now for what I learned..Today I took my shot and I forgot to take aleeve before the injection...OOOOO MAN I will do my BEST to not ever forget. My legs and arms were burning so bad! has this happened to anyone else?

I am truly blessed and counting each blessing. God is amazing and I'm happy that God is answering my prayers.

Later beauties